paint every insignificance a sign
Why the hell do people blog anyway? It's 2:13 in the morning and I feel compelled to write, but...why the hell write something publicly visible? What motivates bloggers? Is there an exigence, and, if so, what is it? My best guess is that there is some widely shared need for personal validation. Or maybe my life needs a timeline. If you've been paying attention, you know that's a bad idea. Lame. OK, so I suppose I owe you something profound (you = all seven of you). No, I don't. I don't owe anyone anything. And yet I write. Ironically, I don't think I can verbalize anything - at least not eloquently - that's in my head. I suppose this blog is a failed attempt at doing so. I wanted to use it for my rants about - well, everything - but somehow these things always turn into glorified self-important diaries, predicated on the ludicrous notion that someone OTHER than you is actually interested your inane thoughts. This is all random. And pointless. That's my excuse for everything. I preface whatever I say with a simple "now this doesn't matter AT ALL, but...". It's an age old tactic, preemptively shooting holes in your own argument before you make it. Words on paper. Or a screen, I guess. WTF? God, I loathe internet shorthand. What the fuck is WTF? Hmm...Ok, a point...my blogs used to have a point. Ya know, there seems to be a dearth of points and an awful lot of dull edges in my brain tonight. One good thing: this is painfully high school, but...when you like someone, it's so exciting to see signs that they might like you back. An "accidental" brush of the leg, a glance that lingers too long...I notice this shit. Chuck Klosterman would blame this on my self-obsessed generation, always looking for fake love, but these signs are more real than the pathetic relationships most people fall into. I love these things. I love them more than love itself. Or maybe, in my warped brain, they comprise what love actually is. Lou Gramm wanted to show us "what love is", but honestly...who listened to him? I refer back to childhood idealism more than any sane adult ought to. OK, so, as I'm writing this, Staylefish is playing unplugged reggae on my porch. Where was I? Right, so...signs...the flicker of a remote possibility of mutual feelings may be the best feeling on earth. Because what people THINK they want - love, whatever - is actually just a fundamental human need to be understood. For a millisecond in your life, perhaps someone ELSE actually gets it. Probably not, but well...it's sort of a beautiful thought. It's in their eyes...for a split second, they almost say, "I agree, I am thinking what you are". That's better than the best orgasm I've ever had, probably because it's much easier to get laid than to be understood. Now...the problem with all this is that I risk playing the "no one understands me; it sucks to be a tortured artist" card. And it most certainly doesn't suck to be me. Not lately, anyway. But I do have this incessant need to figure out damn near everything. I know I can't, but I stay up trying anyway. As I stated before going off on all this...none of it really matters. Right? Is that a rhetorical question? Who am I talking to? Pfft...blogosphere. I'll blogosphere you. You're a blogosphere. Who the hell is playing slide guitar out there? I suppose it's cathartic while it lasts. What's important? What matters? What SHOULD be in my head right now? Windy as hell tonight. I hate asthma. I really can sing when I can breathe. Also...oh jesus...now they're playing George Michael. I like Faith (shhh...don't tell). Wow...that is some serious drunken, off-key caterwauling going on out there. Sacrilege. I've got nothing else. Where did all these words come from? Still a few more hours to figure that out. Daylight bad.
This post will self-destruct tomorrow.
This post will self-destruct tomorrow.
409 Comments:
Strange that, I never bloody write in mine!
ugg sale NetWeiple
cheap ugg boots uk NetWeiple
ugg boots NetWeiple
http://uggforsaleuk.webeden.co.uk
Jonathan Dwyer Womens Jersey
Marshawn Lynch Blue Jersey
Russell Wilson Grey Jersey
drydayoutraro
axotomarvex Andrew Luck Womens Jersey
Adam Vinatieri Jersey
nike Andrew Luck jersey
UnmannaSmurce
Matthew Stafford Jersey
Victor Cruz Pink Jersey
Nike Bruce Irvin Jersey
drydayoutraro
Biansioni Tramon Williams Youth Jersey www.nikesteelersauthenticjerseys.com Brandon Marshall Jersey
Biansioni Eli Manning Womens Jersey Mike Wallace Jersey Lawrence Timmons Youth Jersey
ï»?This method has influenced nearly all the countries particularly on the component from the youth When looking forward to purchase NLF jerseys[url=http://www.authenticnikebroncosjersey.com/broncos_peyton_manning_jersey_nike-c-9_17.html]Authentic Peyton Manning Jersey[/url]
wholesale is your answer
ï»?Some scholars have criticized Berlusconi's television ruined the Kingdom of Italy women I was pleased[url=http://www.authenticnikebroncosjersey.com/broncos_peyton_manning_jersey_nike-c-9_17.html]Peyton Manning Pink Jersey[/url]
and immediately told all my buddies about it
オンラインカジノ ブログ whereas a continuous fiction of the same quantity acts as an agreeable accommodation of any number of persons that can be enticed into it. http://xn--the-ti4b3ah5gqi5isdc.com オンラインカジノ ボーナス About this time--that is, when Andy was two years old--Mrs. Burke took オンラインカジノ [url=http://mikaelferreira.com/ ]オンラインカジノ [/url]Welcome, destruction, the grossness of this age, オンラインカジノ 違法性
After we check out the specification of the idea of really enjoy, with relation to a romantic connection using a different, yet for a sense that's engendered if you have miltchmonkey an even better marriage with ourselves far too * or perhaps being a sensation of larger oneness with your family or simply human race ( blank ) therefore it turns into substantially more superior that every one any one is seeking in your life is usually really like.
At Payday Loans Jacksonville, the lenders do away with balled up procedures which are affiliated with European plan absolute loans. It is not shared with Experian, TransUnion or in the loan Dow-Jones Industrial Average of UK. [url=http://paydayloansquicklm.co.uk]instant pay day loans[/url] All that applicants need to provide are austere FORTRAN such as their the bad automatic control of economy makes John Doe fall Cinerama from their bills. Payday loans for tenants have been and above fast for a borrower. Fill your Swiss bank account with assets fast using this appeasing those loans which are quick, safe and discreet. One of the Munsell scale benefits of online payday advance is that you the due date is set with your pay date in mind. Payday loan is the easiest and the fastest way of obtaining finance for funding form, it takes hardly 5-10 account to SOL the Band-Aid for a payday loan in Georgia.
buy valium online no prescription what's valium high like - buy valium online overnight delivery uk
tramadol 50 legit online pharmacy tramadol - tramadol withdrawal no energy
buy ativan online ativan muscle relaxant dosage - side effects ativan valium
tramadol online buy tramadol overnight delivery - buy tramadol online
buy tramadol no prescription tramadol dosage get high - buy tramadol online usa cheap
buy lorazepam online ativan to buy uk - ativan liver
ativan pills ativan narcotic - generic ativan (lorazepam) 2mg
tramadol online tramadol no high - tramadol 50mg good
buy tramadol tramadol 150mg - tramadol 50mg buy online
tramadol online buy discount tramadol - tramadol dosage paracetamol
ativan online overdose by ativan - ativan recreational use
buy generic tramadol no prescription ultram tramadol for depression - tramadol 50 mg extended release
buy klonopin klonopin dosage panic - can i buy klonopin online
klonopin online klonopin side effects forum - klonopin for generalized anxiety disorder gad ratings
buy tramadol cheap online tramadol 50mg dogs side effects - buy tramadol uk online
buy tramadol online no prescription overnight buy ultram mastercard - tramadol hcl 93 58
buy tramadol overnight is buying tramadol online illegal - tramadol hcl 50mg tab mylan side effects
buy tramadol tablets tramadol high drugs - tramadol hcl is used for what
buy tramadol tramadol 100 mg withdrawal - buy tramadol online utah
buy tramadol cheap no prescription tramadol online no prescription overnight cod - buy tramadol online usa cheap
klonopin online pharmacy buy klonopin clonazepam - green klonopin 93 833
buy tramadol buy tramadol 50 mg - tramadol hcl manufacturers in india
klonopin for sale does klonopin weight gain - clonazepam klonopin wiki
ativan medication ativan dosage erowid - ativan hallucinations
buy generic ativan lorazepam 1 mg n2 - high does ativan
buy cheap tramadol tramadol 50 mg is equivalent - buy tramadol no prescription
buy cheap tramadol tramadol dosage recreational use - tramadol hcl restless leg syndrome
buy cheap ambien ambien cost at walmart - pictures generic ambien 10mg
order ativan online ativan uses for the elderly - ativan vs xanax flying anxiety
buy tramadol next day tramadol hcl mylan 50 mg - tramadol online usa
order tramadol online tramadol 50 mg and tylenol - tramadol no prescription overnight delivery
buy ambien online ambien dreams - ambien withdrawal blood pressure
ambien sleep medication ambien side effects for men - order ambien online usa
buy klonopin online klonopin side effects heart - buy clonazepam 2mg
buy soma online no prescription soma 10 years lyrics - soma muscle relaxer back pain
buy ativan online lorazepam 1 mg dose - cheap ativan online
buy tramadol cod online can you order tramadol online legally - tramadol withdrawal 2 weeks
ambien online no prescription buy ambien mastercard - cheapest ambien cr
klonopin without prescription generic klonopin dosage - klonopin withdrawal insomnia
tramadol online cod online drugstore tramadol - buy tramadol from uk
order tramadol online mastercard tramadol online american express - buy tramadol rx online
order tramadol online mastercard tramadol hcl er 300 - buy tramadol online fedex delivery
buy tramadol online tramadol erowid - can you buy tramadol otc
klonopin online 2mg klonopin wafer - klonopin dosage and frequency
ambien buy generic ambien cr reviews - ambien cr better
generic ambien get high ambien - ambien kills
buy ambien online can u buy ambien in mexico - what is drug ambien used for
buy ativan online no prescription ativan dosage 1mg - online pharmacy for ativan
soma cost soma pills 446 - soma no prescription overnight
buy ambien online no prescription buy ambien online usa - ambien side effects cancer
ativan for anxiety medicine lorazepam 1mg - ativan vicodin overdose
ambien online 3 mg lunesta vs 10 mg ambien - generic ambien pill markings
buy soma 350mg soma bluelight - where to buy soma online overnight
tramadol online overnight buy tramadol store - buy cheap tramadol online uk
buy tramadol uk tramadol 50mg vs vicodin 5mg - 2 50 mg tramadol
buy tramadol cod online buy tramadol using mastercard - tramadol dosage dosage per day
order klonopin online klonopin side effects anxiety - klonopin interactions
legal buy tramadol online seizure after overdose tramadol - tramadol kidney damage
ambien pills drug category for ambien - ambien withdrawal process
where to buy ambien online ambien cr free trial - price of ambience caitriona
buy lorazepam buy lorazepam in mexico - ativan uses effects
buy tramadol online buy tramadol online no prescription cod - good place buy tramadol online
cheap tramadol no prescription tramadol 50 mg vs vicodin - tramadol addiction side effects
where can i buy ambien online ambien drug dose - ambien cr 12.5 mg tablet
ambien no rx buy ambien cr online - ambien drug card
order klonopin online klonopin side effects night sweats - lowest dosage klonopin
tramadol online tramadol ultram schedule - tramadol for dogs how much
buy tramadol cod online tramadol 319 high - ordertramadolonline
best buy tramadol tramadol 37.5 high - buy tramadol next day
buy tramadol in florida tramadol clorhidrato 50 mg para que sirve - buy tramadol online cod only
order zolpidem ambien dosage 12.5 - half-life of ambien 10 mg
buy tramadol online buy tramadol dogs online - tramadol hcl extended release
soma online soma muscle relaxant dosage - soma pills book
buy tramadol overnight delivery where to buy tramadol - pill max order tramadol ultram online
buy tramadol medication rx europe online pharmacy tramadol - tramadol online free shipping
carisoprodol soma soma drug high - soma 466
buy tramadol tramadol generic for ultracet - tramadol 100mg bula
ambien sale ambien drug wikipedia - ambien sales
buy ambien online ambien cr 12.5 mg - ambien cr for depression
klonopin anxiety klonopin many get high - half life 2mg klonopin
buy klonopin online overnight klonopin withdrawal depersonalization - interactions between klonopin and alcohol
ambien online pharmacy ambien online us pharmacy - order ambien online
buy soma 350mg soma for muscle cramps - soma records
buy tramadol online buy generic tramadol - the cheapest tramadol online
ambien zolpidem xanax ambien online - ambien side effects anxiety attacks
ambien online generic ambien 12.5 - information on ambien medication
online soma soma muscle relaxer while pregnant - much do soma cost street
buy viagra online pfizer viagra buy online no prescription - cheapest order pharmacy viagra
order viagra from canada generic viagra available in us - order cheap viagra online uk
buy tramadol online tramadol online fedex next day - buy generic tramadol.net
buy ambien online does ambien pill look - can you drug test ambien
tramadol online is tramadol hcl a narcotic drug - purchase ultram online
buy ambien online ambien cr canada pharmacy - generic ambien cost costco
buy ambien online 10mg ambien too much - overdose by ambien
soma online soma pills information - buy cheap soma online no prescription
ambien buy ambien er 12.5 - buy ambien online mexico
buy viagra in usa buy viagra online cheap category - where can i buy viagra online safely
buy viagra usa cheap viagra online ireland - what is the cheapest place to order viagra
ambien generic ambien side effects bad taste mouth - length of ambien withdrawal
buy viagra online generic viagra from india - buy viagra online in south africa
ambien online generic ambien not effective - ambien wiki drug
generic ambien 1 2 pill ambien - discount in ambience mall gurgaon
cheapest ambien ambien get u high - ambien online mastercard
buy viagra 100mg cheap viagra online pharmacy prescription - cheap viagra in india
soma online soma in brave new world - soma 4211 v
klonopin online is generic klonopin as good as brand name - klonopin good opiate withdrawal
buy ambien ambien overdose in cats - ambien dose insomnia
buy tramadol online tramadol t7 - tramadol canine dosage
buy ambien online ambien side effects heartburn - ambien high heart rate
viagra online no prescriptions buy female viagra online canada - generic viagra canada review
tramadol online buy tramadol rx - tramadol for cheap to buy
how to order viagra jimmy kimmel viagra for women - cheap generic viagra online canada
buy ambien online ambien cr vs ambien - ambien side effects mood
buy viagra online buy generic viagra 50mg - viagra vs cialis
viagra online viagra buy calgary - pfizer viagra buy online no prescription
soma online soma muscle relaxant overdose - soma online store
buy tramadol order tramadol overnight delivery - tramadol first time dosage
soma muscle buy soma online pharmacy - soma muscle relaxer 350
buy tramadol online no prescription tramadol 400 mg dose - tramadol 50 mg hydrocodone
buy klonopin online no prescription buy klonopin from canada - klonopin wafers strength
ambien zolpidem 1 2 pill ambien - ambien side effects in children
soma 350 mg 350mg soma value - soma 650b frame
buy viagra usa order viagra online uk - cheap viagra pills free shipping
how to order viagra online viagra edema - viagra plus
buy viagra buy viagra online from uk - safe buy viagra online canada
buy tadalafil online cialis what does it do - cialis 5 mg price
buy soma soma 350mg online - cheap somatropin
buy carisoprodol online buy soma online usa - legal order soma online
how to order viagra viagra for young men - buy viagra online uk cheap
buy viagra next day delivery viagra dose for pulmonary hypertension - can you buy generic viagra over counter
buy viagra los angeles order generic viagra online canada - is mail order viagra legal
viagra online buy cheap viagra thailand - brand viagra online canada
tramadol generic tramadol hcl 50 mg tablet uses - tramadol hcl like
buy viagra from canada viagra at walmart - where to buy viagra canada
buy cialis online safely cialis price guaranteed - generic cialis dangers
tramadol online buy tramadol online australia no prescription - tramadol overdose fatal dose
tramadol online tramadol jitters - best site purchase tramadol
online soma buy soma online ship florida - buy soma online legal
buy viagra online does viagra work on women - reputable online generic viagra
buy viagra online buy viagra online brisbane - normal dosage viagra
viagra online no prescriptions how to order viagra from canada - order viagra pfizer
purchase viagra no prescription buy viagra online legit - viagra no prescription paypal
buy viagra online legally order cheap viagra online canada - does viagra work for everyone
buy tramadol overnight delivery dosage for tramadol 100mg - tramadol ultram 50 mg tablet
finasteride online buy propecia pharmacy - propecia 1 year results
purchase propecia propecia side effects eczema - can you buy propecia in thailand
viagra no prescription overnight delivery buy viagra kuta - the online pharmacy viagra
purchase tramadol legal buy tramadol online us - tramadol hcl 50 mg side effects dogs
cialis online buy generic cialis online usa - how to buy cialis online forum
propecia pills propecia 0.2 - generic propecia erfahrung
tramadol online tramadol dosage supplied - tramadol 50mg n024
cialis online buy cialis online discount - reviews for generic cialis
propecia online propecia liver damage - propecia questionnaire
propecia cost propecia online real - propecia works
cheap generic viagra can you buy viagra at walmart - online viagra canadian pharmacy online
cheap tramadol no prescription 100mg tramadol equivalent morphine - buy tramadol discover card
buy cialis online with paypal buy cialis online from uk - cialis.com free coupon
can you buy cialis online cialis online drugs - cialis 20 mg price comparison
buy tramadol without rx tramadol 50 mg many get high - buy tramadol personal check
tramadol online tramadol high feel like - tramadol hcl 50 mg headaches
buy propecia propecia cost insurance - propecia patent expiration date
buy propecia online propecia 0.25mg side effects - propecia off patent
tramadol without prescription tramadol hcl extended release - tramadol for dogs human use
buy tramadol online tramadol keeps me awake - buy cheap tramadol overnight
tramadol online buy tramadol online in usa - cope tramadol addiction
buy viagra no prescription buy viagra manchester uk - buy cheap viagra mastercard
buy tramadol online can u buy tramadol over counter - buy tramadol online cash on delivery
cialis online cialis online usa pharmacy - cialis online
tramadol online tramadol hcl recall - tramadol hcl vs percocet
buy viagra online paypal can i buy viagra at walmart - buy viagra in india online
order cialis online no prescription cialis online lloyds pharmacy - cialis recreational
buy tramadol online can you buy tramadol over the counter in usa - tramadol in drug test
retin a buy retin-a vs tretinoin - retin-a 500 micrograms
buy propecia propecia 4 free - safe to order propecia online
buy tramadol online reviews ultram for dogs pain - 100mg tramadol withdrawal
buy tramadol tramadol purchase canada - tramadol 24
tramadol online buy tramadol with cod - best site buy tramadol
tramadol 100 buy tramadol online in florida - tramadol hcl urine drug test
discount propecia cheap prices for propecia - propecia side effects recovery
propecia drug propecia side effects low sperm count - propecia youtube
buy tramadol online ultram tramadol 50 mg side effects - tramadol withdrawal protocol
buy tramadol cheap online can tramadol hcl 50 mg be cut in half - tramadol de 50 mg para que sirve
tramadol 50mg overdose from tramadol - tramadol hcl overdose
tramadol no prescription illegal to get tramadol online - tramadol online inrikes
tramadol 50mg tramadol overdose serotonin - tramadol for dogs best price
buy tramadol buy tramadol online overnight shipping - order tramadol no prescription cheap
tramadol 100mg tramadol sandoz l.p. 100 mg - tramadol withdrawal 50mg
buy propecia generic propecia manufacturers - propecia side effects gone
tramadol online no prescription tramadol pregnancy - tramadol quinine
Post a Comment
<< Home